Almost Grown Up

So, I’ve been pretty bad at posting this last week. There are a lot of reasons for that, and none of them very good. However, I have been thinking a lot about why I started writing here, and where I want this little project to go from here.

I started writing at a pretty hard time for me personally, and I was living a pretty transient existance. Over the time I’ve been writing I’ve shifted into my routine. So while my life is by definition kind of in flux constantly, I’m more settled now. I go to work Monday-Friday, I go to church on Sunday, run 5 days a week, etc. It’s easy to get into a rhythm with all the things life throws at you, and that’s what I’ve been doing, and it has reflected on here.

You see, at some point, I let this stop being entertaining. From time to time I really spent some time writing something more involved, but I felt this imaginary pressure to write something every day. Where did this come from? I don’t know. Somewhere in my mind I cooked up this pressure. Some blogs I read are capable of churning out day after day of interesting posts. I’m not, I lose some of my zing when things start to feel like a chore. Which is what this became. Right in there with drafting documents at work and doing laundry, I had one other thing to check off the list each day. I can’t imagine it was fun for any of you to read, and it certainly wasn’t fun for me to write.

So then last week I wrote a long post about my weekend, and the tornadoes that hit this area, and all the summery things coming up. I hadn’t written in a few days, and I had fun writing it. I really did. And from the responses, both here and those emailed to me, you all had a bit more fun reading it (which is good). So that sort of kicked my ass a bit, and caused me to rethink how I go about writing on here.

The moral of this story? I’ll be posting a bit less often. I want to really enjoy writing this, so I’ll post when I have things to say. Life is still constantly changing for me, and I have lots of adventures coming up in the next few months (including my birthday, you should all start picking out gifts now), so it should be a fun season and a good time for a fresh start (Five months in and I already need to restart, what does that say about me?). I’m also going to get much better at reading all the wonderful things that you are writing, because my google reader has been higher than I would like since I moved here, and it’s time to dive back in there.

Let the games begin.